[KiDyNomiTe]

Sad and touching story time

sophomore year
as i sat there in english class, i stared at the girl sitting next to me. she was my so called "best friend". i looked over at her long, silky, hair and wished she was mine. but she didn't notice me like that and i knew it. after class, she walked up to me and asked for some notes she had missed the day before. i handed it to her. she said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. i wanted to tell her, i wanted her to know i didn't want to be just friends, i love her but i'm just too shy. and i don't know why.

junior year
the phone rang and on the other end it was her. she was in tears mumbling on and on about how her "love" had broken her heart. she asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone. so i did. i sat next to her on the sofa, and stared into her soft eyes and wished she was mine. after 2 hours, a Drew Berrymore movie, and 3 bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. she laid her head gently on my lap and said "thanks". i wanted to tell her, i wanted her to know i didn't want to be just friends, that i love her, but i'm too shy. i don't know why.

senior year
the day before prom she walked up to my locker. "my date is sick." she said. "he's not going to go." well i didn't have a date and we had once promised each other back in grade 7 that if we both didn't have dates for our prom we would go 'just as friends' - and so we did. prom night, after everything was over, i stood at her door step and she smiled at me, her crystal eyes looking back into mine. she said "thanks. i had the best time ever!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. i wanted her to be mine. i wanted to tell her, i wanted her to know i didn't want to be just friends anymore, that i love her. but i'm too shy. i don't know why.

i get back into the car and i see my cell phone on the dash. it was flashing low on batteries and had over 10 missed calls and messages. i tried to retreave as many as i could. one was "f" telling me of something she did today, another was of my parents, and another from more friends ... the last one was from "e" and then it cut off.

a day passed, then a week, and then a month. before i could think it was graduation and i watched her perfect body float across the platform like an angel to receive her diploma. she walked up to me in the end and started to cry. we hugged and she said "thanks for everything". i wanted her to be mine. but she didn't notice me like that, i knew it. i wanted to tell her i didn't want to be just friends. that i loved her, but i am too shy. and i don't know why.

now i sit in the pews of a church. that girl is getting married. that girl is getting married now. i watched her say "i do" to another man to her new life. i wanted more than ever for her to be mine. but she didn't see me like that and i knew it. she came up to me and said "you came!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. i wanted to tell her, i wanted her to know that i didn't want to be just friends, that i loved her. but i am too shy.

years passed but not too many and i look down at a coffin at a girl who used to be my "best friend." At the service they read a diary entry of hers from back in high school which read
"i stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that and i know it. i wanted to tell him, i wanted him to know that i didn't want to be just friends, that i love him, but i'm too shy and i don't know why. i wish he would tell me he loved me --- i wished he loved me too"

i thought to myself - and i cried. i walked up to the coffin and said to her "i wish you were mine. i wanted to tell you all these years, every time i looked into your beautiful eyes, wiped away every broken tear that fell from them, watched your gentle lips talk to me, kiss me, laugh with me. and i am, because i'm not shy now. and i don't know why.