adjuster came by today/ need to vent

[Hawd]

I've been extremely angry today. In fact i've been angry and bitter since my accident in my s14 last wednesday. Well anyway, the adjuster came out today to snap some pictures of the damage. Basically my car is a total loss and hearing soemone tell me that from the insurance company shattered what little hope I had. Add up all the damages, airbags+ dash would cost about 2k just to replace, Then the damage to the upper frame rails etc... basically damage adds up easily to about 4,000 If I were to fix. Thats more than 56% of kbb value and when that happens your car is a total loss. Now I have to sit and wait till they decide who is at fault. Obviously the bitch who caused my accident was at fault, but she didn't admit to it. So, basically I can get fucked over for everything. Ok so whats not making me mad is the situation. What makes me really angry is that I will not ever, Never ever everver ver evrevrvrevrvevr in amillion years will find a s14SE 5SP will almost all options ( wll no lsd but who cares) avvailable fully loaded for $3300. I got a car for about half of what the go for today. On top of that I have the money sitting for my sr in my bank account un touched because I was going to get an sr within these next few weeks. So now I have to use my sr money and wait maybe longer than I ever have to get what I've been busting my ass for this past year. So I'm back to fucking phase 1. I can make life easier and just get an s13, but it's not what I want. HOpefully, just hopefully I can get money for my car, but with my luck lately I'm not going to get anything.
I may sound like an un appreciative fuck because I could have lost my life, but deep down inside I'm pisssed off at the whle situation and what I maybe facing. So now I have to wait maybe lets see 5months to year just to find a s14 to replace this one because it's hard to find them, because everytime I find one it's overpriced or some motherfucker bought it before I could have got the chance to look at it. Just needed to vent, back to pahse 1 for me