Probs with the girlfriend
Let's see...After about 26 months of being together, we decided to go on a break tonight. I can't deny that it hasn't been on my mind for a couple of weeks. I finally decided to talk to her today and she says that she noticed me treating her differently lately. It's not really my intention to do so, but I guess that's how I felt. Don't get me wrong or anything, I love her a lot and she means everything to me.
So I talked to her about it and she says she started to feel the same way, mainly because I started to treat her different. I thought I would feel okay with us breaking up, but apparently not. As I confessed to her, I had that feeling inside my neck. You guys know what I am talking about? That sad feeling where you kind of feel like you are about to cry? Yeah, I had that feeling. Our relationship really did change. Even one of her friends noticed it.
So in my opinion, there is really no such thing as a "break". That's just the nicer way of saying that it's a break up. After that was decided, I admit, I was crying. We're both not sure if it's temporary or permanent. I'll admit, it'd kill me to see her with another guy, though. Don't really know what to do. Just sitting here listening to the Initial D song. It sounds depressing as hell. It fits my mood perfectly.
Yeah, so thanks for reading my stupid rant. Just had to get it out somehow.
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